Disjoint

It's a good word, disjoint. It's a fairly accurate way to describe my thoughts...my speech, and actions.

Like how quiet I am all the time. Calm. Restrained.

Except when I'm loud. Unstable. Off-kilter.

I am the artist who never paints.
                                                            .......rarely paints. With paints, anyhow.

Some sort of a contradiction. Disjoint. Except when I'm the epitome of _____________.


I can be so brilliant, which is enhanced by my insanity but stifled by my laziness...or was it the other way around?

I operate on that good ol' "Fixed Interval scallop" of behavior...like a pigeon. High functioning right at the very end of alotted time before a deadline. Just like a damn pigeon.

I have flown, but I cannot fly.

Some mornings I wake up [somemourningsIwakeup] and wonder how I got to be an adult. But I still don't know what I want to be when I grow up.



So, does anyone wanna hit disjoint?